Sometimes, the holidays can be challenging, especially when you are trying to conceive. Families often gather together to catch up, and children are typically the focus of attention (either the ones physically present, or in the form of the typical ‘So when are you going to start trying?’ question). It does not matter if you welcome the holiday as a celebration, or you experience more solemn emotions. They are your emotions; they are perfect, and normal.
The winter holidays focus on gifts of family, heritage, and faith. While this is a time of reflection and celebration, some of the traditions may cause sadness and anxiety. Exchanging gifts with children, and watching them celebrate such a festive season can trigger many unexpected, and unwelcome emotions. While we cannot eliminate the sadness and anxiety completely, we can prepare and create new traditions that are a bit more conducive to your situation.
Here are some brief suggestions to help prepare and cope with the holidays (while they are similar to the Halloween suggestions, please consider trying all of them again as the focus on these particular holidays tend to be a little more child oriented):
- Be your best friend: You are not required to be anywhere or do anything you are not comfortable with. You have to listen to yourself, and protect yourself. If you feel that going to your cousin’s house with 15 children running around will be too anxiety provoking, then graciously thank them for the offer but let them know you have other plans. You (and your partner, if you have one) must have a discussion before, outlining the most enjoyable and least stressful holiday scenario: where will you celebrate? How long will you stay?
- Prepare your script: This does not mean you will have each conversation planned out, but come to a consensus beforehand. How will you respond to the inevitable question, ‘so when will you have children of your own?’ If you have a couple of planned responses that you feel comfortable with, it will make the conversation a lot smoother, and quicker. When we become anxious about answering a question, it can often lead to us revealing more than we would like, but if we are able to calmly deliver our planned responses, we can guide the direction of the conversation to another topic rather smoothly. If you have told your family you are trying and seeking treatment, this tool also works. They may ask ‘how are your cycles going? What is new at the doctor’s office?’ and instead of giving them a play-by-play of your last blood draws, you could have similar, planned responses.
- Throw yourself into the holiday: What better way to focus on the positive, than to enjoy a beautiful holiday? Try cooking, or decorating the house. Find a way to volunteer, or give back to the community. If you are spending a quiet night with your partner, make a special meal and have a nice glass of wine (one or two won’t hurt!). Get outside and take a walk, it is prime bird watching season as the chickadees are feasting for winter – just like us!
- Create a new tradition: If being surrounded by children opening gifts is too much at this point, create a new tradition with your partner/friends. Do something more adult-oriented that is festive, but not necessarily revolving around gift opening. This is a wonderful opportunity to reconnect with the ones you love, while also receiving a bit of extra support.
- Recognize and honor the emotions, but celebrate with family: This may be an opportunity to use as motivation for your cycles. Try to take it all in. Take a mental image of the smiles and laughter, and when you are experiencing a challenging moment later on, remember those smiles and what it is that you are working towards. You are doing all of this so that you can have those moments, those smiles, for yourself.
Please remember it is incredibly important to protect your emotions, and if that means removing yourself from a situation that could be too challenging, then do it! We just need to get a bit creative, and open ourselves to new traditions and opportunities!
Best of luck,