April is a CNY Fertility Center patient and has been on her journey to fertility for approximately two years. April will share candid stories and a unique perspective on the fertility challenges many women and couples face. Week Seven: Tiny Miracles (7/7/09) “Life is a series of thousands of tiny miracles.” This quote, by Mike Greenberg, was on the front of a greeting card I received upon returning to work after my laparoscopic surgery. When I reflect on my journey to fertility, I realize that I have experienced many tiny miracles. I also realize that I tend to forget about those tiny miracles soon after the immediate experience. For example, I was thoroughly convinced that something was wrong with my cycle this month, which has been the first month since my laparoscopic procedure in which I have charted my basal body temperatures. I was ready to call my acupuncturist to inform her that I had not ovulated and that there was no point in scheduling my luteal phase treatment.
After reviewing Toni Weschler’s book Taking Charge of Your Fertility, I realized that I had probably ovulated after all. I relaxed a bit, but was curious about what was wrong this cycle – all of my temperatures seemed lower that usual. Heather (my acupuncturist) looked at my chart, smiled, and said that everything we are doing is working because my temperatures are the best she has seen them yet. I went home and explained the great news to my husband. When I asked him what he thought I should write about today he mentioned my charts, which I had forgotten about already. Of course, I am still taking my temperatures every morning and have not completely forgotten about my improving charts, but I had forgotten about my improvements just enough to need a reminder. Kristen Magnacca suggests keeping a daily Gratitude List. Simply stated, this is a daily list of all of the people, experiences, etc. for which you are thankful. Admittedly, I have not been reflecting on my tiny miracles consistently and this is apparent by the fact that they are not at the forefront of my thoughts. I decided I would share today’s gratitude list with you and invite you to reflect on your tiny miracles as well. You may even want to consider listing your tiny miracles daily. I know that when I think about not being a mother yet, it becomes far too easy for me to begin the negative “what if” thought process of dismal thoughts. However, if I spend time reflecting on my tiny miracles, I am much more at peace with my life exactly as it is at this moment. Today’s Gratitude List:
My husband – who inspires me and supports me in all of my adventures; he even went to Couples Yoga with me last month!
My dog – who makes me happy no matter how upset I may be
All of the professionals who are making my fertility achievement a team effort
Taking a walk with the dog just in time to miss the thunderstorm
The rain that is nurturing my flowers
My flowers – they make me smile each time I pull in the driveway
I ran all of my errands yesterday so I had a day to relax and work on the house before beginning my summer School teaching assignment
Spending time with my niece, nephew and sister-in-law this weekend
Spending time with my high school friend over the 4th of July
PS – Some lists are shorter, but as long as I have given thought to my tiny miracles, I feel as though I have completed my Gratitude List.
Many tiny miracles, April all Year