April is a CNY Fertility Center patient and has been on her journey to fertility for approximately two and a half years. April will share candid stories and a unique perspective on the fertility challenges many women and couples face. CNY Fertility Center has locations in Syracuse, Albany and Rochester, NY.
Week 48: Passing Phases
Often, when we are in the midst of a trying time, we feel as though the challenge will NEVER end. Personally, I am still dealing with an MS flair up which is affecting the use of my left hand and is making daily tasks difficult (typing, cutting, gripping) and I haven’t even touched my garden yet this year, despite the awesome weather we had this past weekend! I probably won’t be fully back to myself for about a couple of more weeks. But the flair up will end and I will begin to resume my normal activities. In fact, I have already seen great improvement in the feeling in my left arm. This phase is passing as I write this. I just have to be patient and faithful – trust that my body is healing itself, and that the universe/God is taking care of me. He (or the universe) has got it under control, so to speak. This sincere belief is much easier to write about though than it is for me to actually rely upon as my inner strength. Why is it so hard for us to have faith sometimes? Is it because we are terrified of the “what ifs” or because we do not feel we deserve for our desires to actually come true?
Once I am fully recovered from my flair up, I will forge forward with fertility treatment again, but that phase too, will pass. (In our hearts, my husband and I truly believe this!) In the recent month I have heard of two miraculous pregnancy stories. One of the mothers actually has a chronic illness, like me, giving me extra hope! Of course, I know that the majority of us consider any pregnancy story miraculous, but these stories are true “underdog” tales of triumph. And I know that in the midst of their fertility journeys both couples felt as though their journeys would never end. I hope to share their stories with you soon.
As we move through this week, let us all make it our whole-hearted intention to remember we have phases in our lives and the phase(s) we are working through right now are just that, phases that will one day pass. Let us also remember that we do deserve to be parents and to be happy! Let us try to move those “what if” thoughts into “when I am….” thoughts.
In the meantime, we must faithfully trust, be patient and be persistent.
April all Year
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