We started going to CNY Fertility in 2005 after 2 years of unsuccessfully trying to have a baby on our own. My husband and I were heartbroken that it was not happening for us, but after our first consult with CNY, we had hope. We were young at the time, 23 and 24, and thought that before we knew it we would have our family… but there were other plans for us. I was diagnosed with PCOS.
After 3 years of trying Clomid and IUI, we finally got pregnant, but lost the baby at just 5 weeks. Because of also losing my Dad to a long illness at the same time, and all the stress of infertility, my emotions were crushed and we decided to take a break. Our break turned into 2 years, during which we were blessed with a 2 year old foster son who we are now in the process of adopting! But the baby bug was getting strong again and in May of 2010 we decided it was time to return to CNY. I was determined this time to not sink, we decided to put a time limit – 2 cycles and then we were done. Moving on.
So, Dr. Grossman consulted with us again. He told us we would get our baby. There was a determination in his voice that I needed to hear. I was no longer a ‘let’s see what we can do‘ – we were going to get our baby. IVF was not an option for us, so we decided to continue with IUI and just tweak our system a bit. I went in June for a laproscopy, at Dr G’s recommendation. I was upset when I woke up and heard they found nothing wrong – – I wanted them to find something they could fix. But on we went.
First cycle in July we went in head first – acupuncture, injectables, right diet, lots of rest, etc etc etc… and when I went for my test I just knew I was pregnant – I FELT pregnant for the first time in 7 years! I was devasted to get the call that it was a big fat negative.
I was done. I didn’t want to do the second cycle, I didn’t want to think about it anymore. My husband reminded me that I had promised I’d do 2 cycles, and what if, what if that were the one. So I very begrudgingly did another month of injections, daily drives to Latham, blood tests, etc. The morning of my HCG, I woke up late and didn’t want to go. I went anyway. Then instead of my usual wait by the phone for that call, I stuffed my phone in my bag on silent and decided to spend the day with a friend. I pulled the phone out to make a call about something else, and realized I had the infamous missed call from CNY. I decided I would listen to the message just to get it over with. When I listened I heard in an unusually happy voice ‘Janice you are pregnant, you need to call me right away!’ I listened to it 6 times before I believed it. I called back and my numbers were good!
I held my breath the next few weeks, wondering if the other shoe would drop. And it never did. I had a complicated pregnancy, bleeding from 5 weeks to 16 weeks. Bedrest on and off throughout. I loved every minute. I loved being pregnant. Feeling the baby move, knowing what was happening in there. It was all amazing! Until 23 weeks. I was asked to go see a specialist because of a concern that my cervix was thinning. I went expecting to be put back on bedrest. I was immediately admitted to the hospital. I was 2 cm dilated and my water was on the verge of breaking. It was incredibly scary. We were given statistics that made the chance of us having this baby, let alone in good health, not likely. But there was no way we had gotten this far and were going to lose the baby now. I settled into my hospital room expecting to be there for 3 or 4 months.
That was on a friday, the following Tuesday am at 7:29 am at 24 weeks exactly I delivered a beautiful, perfectly formed, TINY baby girl. SHe was 1lb 5ozs, 12inches long. SHe was not breathing. Theu intubated her right away and she was pink as pink can be within seconds. We were able to see her and kiss her and name her before they whisked her off to the NICU. The time that followed was scary, but she proved to us everyday that she was strong and, as determined as we were to eventually have a baby, she was more determined to be that baby! After 76 months of trying to get pregnant, 1 miscarriage, lots of tears, 113 days in the NICU, 3 surgeries, lots of moments of not knowing, and again more tears, and finally some smiles, we finally brought our happy, healthy little girl home. She is now almost 5 months old (although should only be only 1 month old) and is almost 10 pounds, reaching all of her milestones, and has beat out every odd! She is the light of our lives. Our miracle baby in every way.
Words can not say how thankful we are for CNY Fertility. You are one of the biggest reasons we finally have our little girl. The care and compassion of your staff is unsurpassed in every way. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all you do! For making our dreams come true!
With much appreciation,
Josh & Janice